Once you get a taste of sleeping next to someone, sleeping alone in your own bed really sucks.
i just really hope all of you find someone who is really cool that you can love and have sex with and all that shit but you can also talk politics and about evolution. someone you don’t cling to at parties but you nonchalantly grab their ass when you walk by them in the crowd and someone you reach for at 2am in between dreams to cuddle.
I realize, I seriously have no friends. It’s actually really sad. Everyone sees me as this bubbly social butterfly who has a ton of friends when in actuality I’m nothing short of a cardboard cut out of a human being ready made to be forgotten, or maybe I’m too much of a bitch who doesn’t try to retain relationships with people who will tolerate me. Either way, I’m pretty much by myself. My family supports me to an extent but they have their own lives. I keep myself occupied, but never really in the company of people who consider me their friend. I’m always with strangers, people pretty much affiliated with me because of an activity I participate in. I don’t know. It’s just funny. I guess I’m just really lonely even though I’m always surrounded by people. Maybe I’m just overthinking my social situation. I don’t know. Fuck it. It’s late. I’ll bury myself in a book or immerse myself in another television series to forget about this. Goodnight.